The true freedom

The cold raindrop touched my face, I never felt so free before. 

This is the feeling I've been seeking for, I smelled the aroma of the mud grass after rain, I saw a rainbow appearing on top of me. 

The sound of breaking glass is the daily routine for me, I'm used to it. While the other person enjoys the day of their birth with laughter and happiness, mine is full of blaming and angriness, birthday cake replaced by leftover rice, presents replaced by tear cloth. 

I tried to escape from here, but the other me keep stopping my track, it's actually my true feelings, I want to run but I don't have the courage, because deep down in my heart I know, if I run out they'll still found me and I'll have to run to a different place again, it's just like an endless loop. 

I have no friends or relatives to help me, everytime I get near them ,their pitiful faces ,in my eyes they are all making fun of me, not only them, the whole world is blaming me for being born. 

Going to school started to become the hardest thing to do, the strangers I walked passed, I could only think they're talking bad about me. 

I want to run, but I can't. 

I have nowhere to be. 

If only I could be reincarnated in a normal family...... 

I stand on the edge of the building, the cold breeze brush through my cheek. 

I look down, there're so many people gathering around, I didn't feel afraid facing this height, instead I felt happiness. 

I can finally be free. 

I never knew one step could change all my fate, it's very easy, but why did I hesitate for such a long time? 

I'm sorry for being such a burden, I promise I'll be a better person in the next life. 

Thank you for taking care of me. 

Good-bye.