ayuii's otome blog

The cold raindrop touched my face, I never felt so free before.  This is the feeling I've been seeking for, I smelled the aroma of the mud grass after rain, I saw a rainbow appearing on top of me.  The sound of breaking glass is the daily routine for me, I'm used to it. While the other person enjoys the day of their birth with laughter and happiness, mine is full of blaming and angriness, birthday cake replaced by leftover rice, presents replaced by tear cloth.  I tried to escape from here, but the other me keep stopping my track, it's actually my true feelings, I want to run but I don't have the courage, because deep down in my heart I know, if I run out they'll still found me and I'll have to run to a different place again, it's just like an endless loop.  I have no friends or relatives to help me, everytime I get near them ,their pitiful faces ,in my eyes they are all making fun of me, not only them, the whole world is blaming me for being born.  Going to...

 Falling into the same loop, everyday the same routine, turning around as my world.  Before it fully disappeared, I would love to change the reason behind your crystal tears. In this new world, even if we lose our path, fate will surely connect us together.  Standing still on a crumbling ground, I knew one day I wouldn't be able to hold through this, but I firmly believe I could change the way everything that runs in your mind, changing your tears into a beautiful smile.  The precious feelings of mine are growing, millions of butterflies flying in my stomach when I hear your voice, it's the true feeling of love.  Is it really love? I feel empty, I only want your warmth.  In that small gap of light, I reach out to it, everything is still the same.  The same smile, the same scent.  It's an endless loop.  I keep waking up to the same thing everyday. 

  The sound of waves is so gentle, everytime it hits the shore, the sound calms his heart.  Azul looked beside him, there stood the most beautiful girl ever, sometimes he even questioned himself 'Is she real? ' It feels like an illusion, Yuu turns to face him after feeling his eyes keep staring at her.  "What's wrong?" A one question, but the way she questions this makes a thousand butterflies in Azul's stomach.  He loves her so much, so much to the point he would burn all his contract just to be with her, one thing concerns Azul the most is they're both from different species.  She was a beautiful and kind human, while he is an unhonest and sluggish octopus, they are not meant to be together.  Watching the sunset set down from the beach, the scenery is so beautiful.  For Azul, the more beautiful scenery is seeing the light reflecting on her visual, just like a dream. Even for just a while, he wanted to stay longer with her.  "Huh? Do you find way...

 Chapter 2 Bright light shines down in his room,signaling him it's time to wake up. Ace slowly opens his eyes, observing the space around him, he's back in his room again.  "Ace, you finally awake. " As usual, Deuce will always wake him up when he sleeps too much, along with.....  'Umm? Deuce and..... Who is it?' Ace grunted as he grabbed his hair, he tried to recall back the blurry memory of a person but he failed.  Seeing Ace conditions Deuce asked worriedly, "Hey, are you okay? " Ace could only nod at his statement.  He doesn't feel sick, it just feels.... empty inside.  Didn't wanting to get deep into the question, Deuce just offered him to change to his uniform quickly before he stepped out of the room, leaving Ace alone.  It takes a lot of time to get ready since Ace keeps wandering off, thanks to Trey both of the first year students managed to get to the class before the bell rang.  Ace keep wander off in class, even during Trein perio...

Chapter 1 The space around them had shattered,the broken glass floating up,reflecting all the memories they had been through. "It's the memory frame!" What is happening? Feeling anxious, Ace turns around, only to be greeted by the scene he never wished to see.  "Yuu....?" "Why are you becoming transparent...? " He reached out to grab her, but his hands only passed through her slowly disappearing figure.  "Haha, guess it's time to bid our farewell...?" It's the usual smile she would always show to him, it's really hard for her to force out the smile this time, what else can she do? Yuu didn't want to see the sorrow of the person she loved.  "Why...? " Tears wouldn't stop flowing out of his eyes, he gripped his clothes so hard that it could get torn off any moment,this is too much for him.  The day they went together......  "I don't belong here." She says this with a sign of whimpering, this is the on...

  What are you afraid of?  One easy word, but everyone in this world owns it.  Losing faith in humanity, being weak when facing that exact person.  Whole body is shivering in the unnecessary thoughts, not wanting to pry through the depth in the dark hole, I can't help myself but keep searching for the only faith.  "Are you okay? " One word, hundreds of anxiety.  "I'm fine. " Blaming yourself for saying a Iie, hoping they would never tear apart the mask, humanity is crueler than you thought.  The figure I saw in them when they're turning away, I saw the evil smile in it.  Eyes widened at it, feeling everything pointing at me, laughing at me.  'Stop being so weak.' The other clone of my own is reminding me about this, forcing myself to step out from the line I draw, wanting to discard the thought.  It is all the wrong choices.  I didn't choose to be in the darkest path.  The universe decided all this, everything is turning into d...